i haven't felt much like updating lately. sorry about that. not that anyone noticed. or cared. just thought i'd apologize anyway.

i saw shaun the other day. i miss hanging out with that kid. though i don't know why. we have barely anything in common and it always feels kinda awkward when we talk cuz we don't have anything to say. i'm still attracted to him, and i can't figure that out, either. he's kinda pudgy, pale, full of freckles, big red, curly afro...looks uncannily like that kid from the sandlot that's in those sobe commercials...

then there's nick. we have even less in common but once we start talking, you can't shut us up.

classes started yesterday. i love them all. but that may change once we start doing stuff in aerobics.

sucks i don't have a book deferment this semester, though. i took too many credits and didn't have any money left over. i need to call my dad and make him give me some money.

stacey doesn't live here anymore. she still has most of her crap here and has a key, but she's basically living with sean. she knows i hate her for that, but i hate confrontation, so i haven't said anything. i can only deal with arguments if someone else starts them.

heather's in my ethics class. we've been getting along surprisingly well. stacey's like, "what's up with you being so buddy-buddy with heather?" i just shrugged and said i liked her.

i bought a pack of cigarettes today. i've been smoking one a night lately. and i was getting sick of mom's winstons. had a nice conversation with the gas station attendants about the best brand. made fun of the guy for smoking marlboro lights. good times. i missed being a smoker.