one of my wisdom teeth has decided it's a good time to start growing in. guess it got sick of just sitting there. also, i think it may be crooked. and, you know, there's nothing i can do about it. it's not like i have insurance or money or things like that. it's not so bad now, i can just hope it doesn't get worse. i also hope this one tooth doesn't inspire an entire wisdom teeth rebellion. they were all so good for the longest time. just sitting there, under the gums, chilling. of course now would be the time they choose to make their debut appearance.

i've also half-convinced myself i'm pregnant. not that's there's really any reason i would be, that just seems to be the way things are going. you know? that would be the perfect final straw to throw me into a nervous breakdown. i am trying so hard to be self-sufficient here and work out my own problems, but there is just so much that seems to be working against me. my life skills basically suck.

i'm also fearful i'm not going to be able to get a new visa. i don't really think it should be a problem, but there's still that thought. i'm going to the immigration office tomorrow morning, so at least i'll know for sure after that.

i have one job right now, tutoring english. it's only around $100 a week, so i'm still looking for more. the dude who set me up with this job has tried to find others for me, too. i was a substitute english teacher one day. so that was neat. none of the other jobs he's tried to find have worked out, though. i don't actually have a working visa or a degree and i'm also not planning on staying here long. so there are not many jobs i can get.

it's just a little overwhelming sometimes. i've never tried surviving so much on my own before. it's a lot to think about. but i still have my friends and my fun. i even had a husband for about twenty minutes. i met him on the subway and he thought we had a connection, so he proposed i be his wife. just until my stop. then i could go back to being me. he was a good husband. made sure i didn't fall when the train jolted. it was nice being married.